Dark Matters
by Michael Doyle

You were my bright tomorrow
Now all I have is my sorrow
And I've only myself to blame
Please don't look at me in my shame

Feelings bubbled up in trouble
I opened my mouth, now its double
I can barely see through my tears
I've lost again to my fears

It seems like only yesterday
I had all I wanted and pushed you away
There is no way to fix this mess
All that's left is what I do confess

I'm sorry for my many imperfections
I try to keep them boxed up like collections
But it looks like some have spilled out
Behind my usual brave face is anxiety and doubt

It's a feeling quietly post-traumatic
And I don't mean to be this dramatic
The pain inside my heart seems here to stay
Because, I know that I've pushed you away

Feelings bubbled up in trouble
I opened my mouth, now it's double
I can barely see through my tears
I've lost again to my fears

It seems like only yesterday
I had all I wanted and pushed you away
There is no way to fix this mess
All that's left is what I do confess

Like a tidal wave, it got too deep
And now it seems I've become that creep
Trying t fight my way to the surface again
Where at least maybe I can be my friend

Darkness, darkness, it surrounds me
This confusion inside, it confounds me
Doing my best attempt to stumble through
The cost of this is the unbearable loss of you

Feelings bubbled up in trouble
I opened my mouth, now it's double
I can barely see through my tears
I've lost again to my fears

It seems like only yesterday
I had all I wanted and pushed you away
There is no way to fix this mess
All that's left is what I do confess

(c) September 5, 2022  Michael Doyle
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