Heartbreaks Forgiven

I wrote this poem just now.  Please forgive the typos.  It’s sort of a word flow thing….

Broken

Heartbreaks Forgiven
by Michael Romani

I watched you kill your child today
I held your hand and did not look away
You told me what a horrible person you were
I watched your eyes distinctly, not in a blur

As you asked would you go to Hell
I was younger then and said only time would tell
You cried for hours until you could cry no more
I offered you a hug and you asked what for

It was hard to see your heart breaking
Certain that everyone and God would be forsaking
Pledging me to the utmost secrecy
Like this was our hush-a-bye conspiracy

You were the Christian back then
I was just your heathen who loved you and when
You could no longer find reason to forgive yourself
I took to looing for some sort of answers from a shelf

It hurt you that you had made that mistake
In a lull between us, it was a risk to take
You were soul certain this was God's plan
To teach you for being with that man

I watched you kill your child today
I held your hand and did not look away
You told me what a horrible person you were
I watched your eyes distinctly, not in a blur

As you asked would you go to Hell
I was younger then and said only time would tell
You cried for hours until could cry no more
I offered you a hug and you asked what for

I held you close and told you it would be alright
And then held you some more until the morning light
Afraid to let go of you in all for your tears
That's how we spent our end of childhood years

Me there always watching looking out for you
No matter the things that you would do
And we laughed a little at the shoe on the other foot
You feeling like your halo was tarnished, covered in suet

And me still grateful for your sweet love
That like a sparkle, you had brought God from above
I had been your project and your wild man
Trying your patience as only I can

I watched you kill your child that day
I held your hand and didn't look away
You told me what a horrible person that you were
I saw your eyes distinctly, not in a blur

And you asked would you go to Hell
I was I was younger then and said only time would tell
You cried for hours until you could cry no more
I offered you a hug and you asked what for

Now the years have flown since we said goodbye
And I still think about the time you cried
I'm so grateful that you taught me to live
And what it means to truly forgive

I saw a photograph of your daughter the other day
She grew up beautiful reflecting you in every way
I thought of calling you but put the phone away
Better that you never have to remember that day

I've kept this secret for about Forty years
But, tonight I sit alone in my tears
Remembering how you taught me to pray
Only regretting that you did not stay

You had your well understood reasons
And me, I still pay throughout the seasons
Happy for you that your life turned out right
I kept you safe until the morning light

My only sorry was not knowing what to say
Though it might not have been different anyway
I smile as I look at your daughter's photograph
Wiping my tears while with joy I just laugh

I watched you kill your child that day
I held your hand and did not look away
You told me what a horrible person you were
I told you that you had told me of a cure

As you asked would you go to Hell
I was younger then but said that only God could tell
You cried for hours until you could cry no more
I offered you a hug and you asked what for

You see the thing is that despite your mistake
You were and are an angel that Satan could not shake
After you left me, it turns out you found your way
And me? I just smile and silently pray

(c)  February 9, 2019   Michael Romani
All Rights Reserved

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Writer, poet, musician, surfer, father of two princesses.
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